i have stopped banging my head on the desk but only because it hurts!
still walking around mumbling "stupidass imbecilic moronic jackass! how could i do such a stupid thing?? how could i be so damn stupid??? not like everything was riding on it or anything?? now i am going to wind up in an alley drinking from a paper bag, peeing myself, wearing men's shoes and talking to squirrels!!" (and variations on a theme. i am very creative when beating myself up.)


am thinking about actually getting up and moving to take a shower but afraid i would bungle the "lather rinse repeat" directions.
ugh.
(i'll be done moping eventually, i promise)


and let's top this off with an afternoon of single parenting and visiting my mom. banging my head on the desk is starting to look like an apealing option.