NY Mets 2006 NL East Champions!!
I believe in the church of baseball. I've tried all the major religions and most of the minor ones.I've worshipped Buddha, Allah, Brahma, Vishnu, Siva, trees, mushrooms and Isadora Duncan. I know things. For instance, there are 108 beads in a Catholic's rosary and there are 108 stitches in a baseball. When I learned that, I gave Jesus a chance. But it just didn't work out between us. The Lord laid too much guilt on me. I prefer metaphysics to theology. You see, there's no guilt in baseball. And it's never boring, which makes it like sex...It's a long season and you gotta trust it. I've tried them all, I really have, and the only church that truly feeds the soul, day in, day out, is the church of baseball - Annie Savoy Bull Durham
photo credits: George Eastman House/ Lewis Hine as used in Baseball: An Illustrated History. Ward, Geoffrey C. and Burns, Ken. NY: Knopf, 1994. 103.
November 16, 2005
downswing day
i keep struggling to write something about this depression, about how it affects both j and i. i want to write about how it feels but somehow all of those descriptions have been written before in long blogposts and bad poetry and have become useless. there is just no way of knowing without going through it and unfortunately, i am watching while j goes through it.
but i am tired. tired of feeling suffocated, tired of crying, tired of fighting and tired of being tired.
depression sucks. pure and simple. passing it on to someone you love makes it even more craptacular.
cloudy, miserable days don't really help much either.
michelle | 11:25 AM |
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