i am too stressed and pissed off to get into all the details, but health insurance in this country is f-ing ridiculous. if you make excessive amounts of money, good on you, you can be insured. and if you hardly make any, we've got a plan for you too. but...if you own your own business and/or make an average amount of money? fuck off. no insurance for you. it would cost more than a mortgage payment and wouldn't cover any basics anyway. you know...basics like prescriptions and check ups.

so once again i am sitting here wondering whether it is worth it to get better or should we just tough it out and see what happens. i am so sick of it. i am sick of having to weigh out just how much everyone's health is worth. but for today, since it isn't me, it's the munchkin, we are headed in. and you know what sucks? i already know he has strepth, all the kids in his class have strepth, and instead of calling in a prescription, we are going to go in and have a check-up and run some f-ing tests and then call in a prescription.

if you have health care, then this would cost you nothing but a grumpy kid being dragged to the office, you probably don't even really consider it. but when you don't have healthcare? well, if i were the sick one? i would just be toughing it out.

i read all over about people going to see their therapist--about people getting help or meds to get through things. and you know what? i would f-ing love to get help. but i can't justify it when i am already paying out over $350/mo for meds for j. anyone priced out health insurance for a family of four lately? it's generally between $11,000-$16,000/yr. since most don't cover j's meds you can tack on another $4200/yr. seem like a good idea? and keep in mind that most of those plans are only major medical. so no check-ups and prescriptions, if they are included at all, cap off around $500/yr.

sorry, just ranting. but i am pissed off and tired and now heading off to c's dr. to pay out an extra $100 or so for them to tell me what i already know. and, add to that, c gets to sit in a waiting room of germ infested munchkins. ah, the fun never ends.