March 31, 2004
"I don't like ME"
No, not my own sentiment (although I often have those days) but hers.
My little someone.
The days when the mom handbook is once again seriously lacking information are once again upon me.
After a melt-down triggered by my purchase of a new toy necessity for myself. .. you know the "why can't I have one?" -and- "then why can't I have a laptop?" -and- "when can I have a cell phone?" which led to a small lecture from me which led to:
"I hate that I am so selfish"
"I hate that I am never happy unless I have something to look forward to"
"My friends don't really like me"
"I do mean things and I can't stop myself"
"I can't stand it that I always feel guilty for things I did every day"
"When I feel guilty, I can't sleep until I tell you and dad about it, but then I'm aftaid you'll be disappointed in me"
"Mommy - How do you start your life over again because I don't like ME!"
... all this said through heart-felt sobs, you know, the kind where you are pouring your heart out to the one person who can help you ... but that one person is me, and I am just a first-time mom with no answers.
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This one hurts, more than I can express here. How do you know when it's real and dangerous anguish, or if it's just a blue mood for a hormonal pre-teen? Where is the distinction between "playing on mom's heartstrings" to get some attention and the real cry for professional help before it's too late?
I could only hold her and offer positive exceptions to each negative (she has lots of friends - she can be quite generous at times - and she's not a terrible person).
Of course I did offer the honesty of what I went through at her age and even later, * the anguish of not fitting in with those who I thought were my friends (and being told so in just that many words)
* the feelings of being not good enough at anything
* not being at all happy with the person I was
This helped a little I think because she was quite suprised to hear this and of course said what any kid would say: "Mom really? and you turned out just perfect! I want to grow up to be just like you!" (gasp)
We prayed together, we hugged, and went on with our evening.
Now she and her poured out little heart are sleeping ~ and mine is breaking.
Perhaps I'll go wake up the other parent (who's sleeping in the recliner) and pour out my own heart to him. ~ ;-) misery loves company ~
and hopefully he'll understand, and offer some words of wisdom.
He's good at that, after all he's been through this twice before, (and I think that they both would agree)
But please feel free to stop by and add your own advice ~ I could use the support tonight.
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N, First of all, >>. Second of all, been there, both myself and with my 2 kids. You did the BEST thing that you could do (which is also the HARDEST thing) and that is listen. You didn't poo-poo her feelings or brush them aside. She is growing up and the feelings of inadequacy creep in even if you are prom queen. Rest assured that she will be fine. She has great parents to help her through these tough times. Now, wake up you-know-who and get a little support for you!
I have three kids and my "mommy handbook" seems to lack the right things to do just about every day especially with my six year old *sigh* - I guess they're testing us most of the time and we have to come up with the right thing to do on our own. Funny how my mom always seemed to know the right things to do and say.
(came here by way of coffeesoup.com by the way)
hang in there. you did the only thing that you could do. if you are unsure if she wants or needs professional help, you can always ask her if she thinks talking to someone might help her. sometimes they surprise us by knowing what would be good for them (sometimes they surprise us by not seeing what would be good for them as well...it's a gamble!)
{{hugs}}
okay as you know I am not a parent (unless you count cats!). but I was a kid, a very long, long time ago...you also might know that the person that gave birth to me (bonnie), is no longer counted as my family. with all that said (and so much more un-said).
Growing up was kind of different in that my parent went through a divorce and a long (to an 8 year old), custody battle for 2+ years! But before, during, and after all that, Bonnie was always talking to my brother and me, about how we felt, how special we were, how dad and her felt about us. I guess just making sure we felt, and knew we were loved. I don't think there are any sure fire answers to questions kids ask, but probably the best thing is the fact that the kid(s) come to you and ask the question in the first place. I also think it's awesome that you don't blow it off as just moody.
Kids now a days are growing up WAY too fast. When I was her age, I was more worried about whether my bike chain was gonna fall off, or will I be able to eat over Jimmys house tonight! Of course boys don't 'think' as much as girls do.
You're doing everything you can, and that is what counts, or all anyone can ask for.
That's hard. My oldest is 12, and there have been times that she has broke my heart, telling me how unhappy she is about things - friends, school, etc. I decided that as long as it was a once in awhile thing, rather than an often thing, accompanied by other worries, that it is prob nothing more than growing up, and hormones. It's hard to be that age. All we can do is be there for them.
P.S. love love love the new skin!
I remember the guilt thing only too well. I think that it is a good thing, it shows she is caring of other people. She gets that by way of genitcs you know. I was just the same and my parents were always there to listen (and sometimes the nice lady next door too:) ) Listen and love that's all you can do. Be glad she is comming to you and kuddos to you for always being there. As long as you are she will always share her heart with you. I know I still go to my parents with all my hopes and fears. And they are still listening and that is a comforting thought. Love you guys!!
No advice hon, just ((((hugs)))), Kayla is too small yet for me to know how to handle that situation.
I honestly think you said all the "right" things...I would have felt comforted if it was me :)
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March 30, 2004
Puppies Babies
They're like babies!
I forgot!
It's not just about running around making sure they don't get into trouble or squat at the wrong time, in the wrong place.
You worry about them and become distraught when they are sick!
Yep, she's sick this little puppy. Just 8 weeks old and she is the unwitting host of an intestinal parasite. The manifestations of that, I won't go into ... but the little moans and groans that she makes will break your heart.
Yesterday was the worst of it, a visit to the vet and some meds and today she is better already. Now I just have to worry because she is alone for a longer period of time today than she has been yet ... and she's sick ... and what if ...
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She will be fine Mom, just like B was when I left him and J was when you left her for that 10 minute span once. Ummm Is there a DYFS for animals?
aw. she'll be fine. she has that comfy doggie condo :)
ummm just in case you may want to bring one of those "spill kits" home from work with you
sorry about the puppy! How's J handling it?
aww hugs for the pup. Mine was sick yesterday too. But I think the cause was the large hole in the bottom to the garbage bag out sid the door. Hmmmm?
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Amazing
Just wanted to share this incredible Lego Structure of the Abston Church of Christ seen over at Nancy's.
Please Go take a look, and check out all the pictures.
Kudos to any person with that much vision and perserverance!
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I am surprised I looked at the whole site ;-)
Usually I am knee deep in code, and Rick will say, Wow, hunny look at this! And I glance over, and it's cool, but nothing to stop playing with colors for ;-) I mean to go back and look more, but I honestly don't get around to it :(
This time, Kayla was sitting on my lap and we looked at it together, it was cute!
I asked him why we don't have structures in our apartment LOL, he said OK, you asked for it. Uh oh! LOL
That is pretty cool, I have to admit.
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blogging for weight loss
Time to take some control here, well, of my life in general, but right now a few specifics.
* First, the weight thing. I feel that I have at least a few loyal readers (maybe even 5 or 6). They say (who are they, anyway) the more people you tell, the more apt you are to stick with something. So I oficially announce here that I WILL LOSE 5 POUNDS BY THE END OF APRIL (after that, we'll set a new goal).
As for exercise, the past few weeks there has been a "valid excuse of the day". (a sinus headache, need to go to work early, the puppy, I fell off a ladder and I'm dizzy, too many chores; and now it's this new thing with the palpitations or APCs or skipped beats or whatever that has plagued me for the past three nights please, please, please - don't say it's the coffee)
Well, regardless of all that, I will return to my usual 3-days-per-week of exercise to assist in the weight loss.
As for the other areas ~ I'll post more tomorrow. One tper day should be more than enough to handle.
So ~ PLEASE stop by and encourage me to "Step Away from the Biscotti" ~ and "Get Some Control!"
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Ok then, step away from the biscotti and get some control woman! :)
How about if I vow to lose 5 pounds by the end of April with you?
I really need to lose weight, but food is my only crutch LOL, and I am just not ready to give it up yet. Hurray for you with the willpower hon! ♥
Okay, I won't mention the pizza for tonights' dinner, after all, it does contain many of the necessary food groups. I also need to lose a pound or 200...please don't ship the chocolate from your office to mine and I will do the same.
Give up the biscotti!!! There are so many other things you can replace it with - how about some fresh mozzarella with roasted peppers,sundried tomatos and a loaf of italian bread? Or perhaps....A hot fudge sunday with sliced bananas and whipped cream? Or....never mind....I dont think im helping.
If it makes you feel better, I get palpitations even thinking about a diet.
how many people don't feel the need to lose some weight? I'd like to lose 10-15 by summer time, even went and bought a bike (don't ask me about the $1,000 price tag!), but more importantly is the food. At work we get free food (cooked to order), and a room, literally, full of snacks/junk food. I have bben playing with the push away diet, rather then going no carbs or something else radical. I'll eat half of what's on my plate, and push the rest away. I get what I like to eat, but just limit the amount. The biggest problem I have is the stuff I REALLY like.
Good luck with the weight loss.
I know I'm tired of before every vacation, I get all mopey knowing I'm not gonna like the way I look in my thong bathing suit!
Ok, I am right there with ya. I will be curving evry Tues and thurs and alternating Fri and Sat. I will post my losses (not the total) on the bluefrog blog. Maybe together we can get down to it. Maybe I will see if ugly can make a countdown for it.
Good luck to us.
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March 28, 2004
stupdity, ladders, bosses and puppies
Brandy slept through the night just fine. She has a crate-pen-litterbox contraption that M created and arranged in my kitchen.
As to Friday's reference to ladders. I fell. Stupid. Hanging drapes. Stepped from the third rung of a step-ladder to a low stool. Stool went one way, I went the other. The result was slamming the back of my head into the metal divider between the sliding glass doors. Noise, pain, blood and tears (tears were someone's when she saw the blood running between my fingers as I held the back of my head). Ultimately, no sutures, no trip to the ER. Just a late night (M was worried I might have a concussion). lots of Advil, lots of ice packs and a two-day headache.
Was this a fitting end to that Friday? You know, the one with the corporate bosses and graduation?
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The ceremony went well, and in fact was over early. Why did I get home late? Well my boss (the one with no social graces), stood up at the coffee-and-cake reception and said "OK, I'm heading home", leaving the Vice President of the company there with no where to go at not-even-9 pm except his hotel room. Don't think he's earning any Brownie Points here.
If you have out-of-town corporate visitors isn't it your job to entertain them, or at least offer?
Luckilly a few of us remained, a suggestion was made and we went out for a glass of wine. Now this man was our boss about 11 years ago, so us old-timers had some catching up to do anyway. Had a nice time.
Got home and M was hanging curtain rods ~ someone was still at church youth-group, and I was wide-awake and anxious to get up on that ladder!
(which by the way has perfectly good first and second rungs ~ I just don't like doing things the conventional way)
Now we're off to church, and then home to play with the pup!
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OMG, so sorry about your head. I hope it is feeling better by now. Sounds like you need a day off... You were nice to take the corporate boss out, as much as I like him, I couldn't wait to get out of there Friday night and begin my weekend. You are a good egg.
OUCH! Be careful! Hope you're feeling better soon!
I'm wondering if a fall like that, described in a blog, qualifies as slapstick. You know,like slipping on the banana or taking a creme pie in the face... But no, I winced, especially when you mentioned blood. Glad at least that there were no stitches. Take it easy. Isn't a new puppy enough to adjust to without hanging curtains right at the end of a work week?
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March 27, 2004
A picture is worth...
one thousand words,
Need I say more?
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Awww! That's adorable...true love...
Very very sweet. Look at that eye-lock thing going on between the two of them. Congratulations.
How cute are they?????????????
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TODAY IS THE DAY
I would like to call your attention to the countdown on the left side of this site.
5 ~
4 ~
3 ~
2 ~
1 ~
TODAY IS PUPPY DAY !!
We are of course up early and ready to go.
Late night last night, but that is a story for another day.
We are far too excited to think of ladders, stupid moves, and split scalps this morning ~ and anyway now I just have one doozy of a headache, so I think I'll live.
Will post photos later (not of my head) of the puppy and a very happy someone.
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happy puppy day!!!!!!
have lots of fun. can't wait to see her.
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March 26, 2004
I'll take "WRONG ANSWERS" for 500, Alex
(apologies if you see this same entry elsewhere, I may have swiped her quip)
Things not to say to your corporate boss:
In response to "What's new":
"Same old, same old" ~ "Then come up with something new."
In response to "Looking forward to hearing your speech tonight"
"Oh, we don't give speeches" ~ "You don't? Well, we'll have to see about that"
In response to: "What's new?" (to another employee)
"(with a smile)My new flat screen monitor has increased my productivity" ~ "Do you know you are the only employee in the company with a flat screen monitor?"
.... and so our day goes ....
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OMG ..soooo glad I am outta there. Find a new hiding spot, I think they may know where you are.
P.S. Probably also not a good idea to charge the Vice President $7.00 for a ticket to graduation...
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Big Wigs and ceremonies
Gotta paint on my smile today.
Corporate bosses are in the building!
"How's everything?"
*smile* "great"
"Pretty busy?"
*smile* "Oh, yes!"
etc, etc, etc
Tonight is graduation. A strange mix of stress and warm fuzzies.
(yea, after 14 years I still get mushy when a graduate cries)
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okay gagging now.... (but I have my smile on!)
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March 25, 2004
Attitudes
Stop me if this is a repeat post.
I know it's my own particular rant.
BUT>>>
Where do these girls get this ATTITUDE thing?
"I don't got no attitude problem"
"Hey, if someone disrespects me I have the right to disrespect them right back"
"This isn't an attitude ~ this is just the way I talk to people - you can like it or not, but it's just my way"
"I don't have to look at you when I talk to you
Where does this "chip on the shoulder" come from?
How do I knock it off? This is a career training course? Who wants to employ you?
~ 14 years I have worked here and it only seems to get worse ... or maybe I am getting older.
Was a time I thought I could actually help; make them understand; have them learn useful human relations skills, teach them by example
~ ~ but ~ ~ AAaggh!!! ~ *beats head against computer screen*
Not anymore. Now I'm settling in on "Just do it my way or there's the door"
Am I wrong?
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I am probably the wrong person to be reading this post, much less posting on it. I too at one time(13 years to your 14) had those same starry eyed dreams for our students, help them change their lives, etc... After awhile you realize it is more YOUR dream for them than theirs. I still try with them, but I know I am more than a little "tarnished" in my attitude with them. As far as that "chip" on their shoulder, I have my own ideas on how to "knock it off" but I don't think I am allowed to do it MY way....sigh...
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Nice
Just got back from visiting the doctor
~ yearly physical type of thing.
But, we gat talking, he asked questions, I answered, and I have to say, it's nice having a doctor who will listen to you, and not think you are crazy, or just over-stressed, "don't worry you're perfectly healthy".
We worked through some stuff, will try some changes, visit again in a month and maybe some day I'll be closer to being a normal person.
"nuff said.
I think I feel better already.
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At least one of us is feeling better. I need somebody to destress me for a while.
On a brighter note I just saw a ringnecked duck on my way home. Very cool look for him tomorrow in the bird of the day catagory. :)
J saw a pair of Ringnecks a week ago while we were driving past a local lake.
She knew they were different, so we turned around and went back to investigate. She got a good look.
Sometimes I miss living on the lake for that very reason.
A normal person? Not familiar with that term...sorry
I'm with Debby, why be normal, no one else in this family is...driving in this morning with Nora we say a VERY colorful, quail walking along the road. One of these days I'm going to buy a semi-decent camera, for those oppurtunities, and keep it in my car.
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Dell update
In case anyone was wondering, I have not hung myself with the mouse wire or anything over this issue.
The morning following the mess ~ I woke up, turned on the computer ~ went on-line and automatically (as I do every morning) clicked on the "get mail" thingey~
~ and ~
~ VOILA!
There it was, in all it's glory! My e-mail, to read and send and delete at will.
I guess there really are house elves, or computer faireys who come in the night and save you from certain homicide or worse yet computercide!
Anyway, thanks Brad for offering to come help.
I think I'm OK now. Just need to spend more time figuring out how to use all the extra bells and whistles this thing came with.
Someone is dying to burn some music!
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See? Told ya the Dell thing would work out eventually. I really am not in need of the computer fairies, however if you see the cleaning and laundry fairies, please direct them to my house. I will be forver indebted.
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March 24, 2004
sick rooms, CN and dead lead singers.
Home today, go figure.
The worst of it is over. Actually I think the dad got the worst of it last night.
I am hearing the welcome words "Mom, I'm a little hungry".
We'll read some more Harry Potter, then try some lunch.
Been cleaning bathrooms (plural)
- Why is it we need more than one bathroom in a home? and why is is that sick children must use each and every one of them when the urge to purge comes upon them? (You set up one bathroom, close to the bedroom with all the necessary sick supplies, and before you know it they are running downstairs, carrying their bucket and ALMOST make it to the downstairs bathroom ~ miss the bucket ~ miss the toilet ~ etc.)
So, I am cleaning, Lysol of course. The dad did clean up too, but he thinks that any old cleaner will do. I was brought up on Lysol. Period. Kills germs.
Actually, I still remember my grandmother cleaning everything with CN. Talk about strong cleaners ~ takes the finish off your tub, and the skin off your hands. Never heard of CN? Well then you are probably also too young to know that Paul is dead. Try playing your CDs backwards ~ I'll bet you'll learn no dark secrets that way. And you probably clean with swiffer wet jets!
{sigh} Oh, for the good old days.
One bathroom to clean ~ with caustic cleaners ~ while you played your albums backwards.
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Okay, what's the deal? We have already established the fact that I am old, but I have never heard of CN. I do know about the lp's played backwards (from what I remember of the 70's) but CN???
Sorry your day off can't be more enjoyable, but at least you are home with those you love. Take care of J....enjoy your time together.
Ummmm, you missed the meeting. I gave your pad to Joe, hope you don't mind...
Well I am glad the kiddo is felling better. Have fun cleaning. I must be young because I don't know this CN stuff either. (I may have played an alblum or two backwards) talk to you later.
Almost puppy time :)
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March 23, 2004
oh dread ...
looks like the dreaded "stomach flu" has hit our house...and dad is home taking care of the "issue" while I am here at work feeling miserable about not being at home ~ and yet I wonder I would want to be there right now. Guess that's the "mother" thing ~ need to be there at the worst possible times.
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Just got the upstairs bath clean (sort of) -- put her to bed --- about 20 mins later she came down to use the clean bathroom --- missed the bucket again. Looks like a long night for her (and us) --- she looks soooo sad --- all I can do is wipe her face with a cool washcloth and hold her hair back and keep telling her it will get better.
Hang in there Mom and Dad. I hated those times. You see your child so sick and you are so helpless to do anything to help other than comfort. I remember begging my Mom to "do something" when I was a kid and had it... Sorry , you 3....
Hope she is feeling better today. Just to let you know the whole hold the hair and pat the back thing makes all the diffrence. Trust me I remember.
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Gotta getta #@#$%^& DELL
Oh I had to get a new computer ~~~ smart move! Why? because the old one is on it's proverbial last legs, and slower than mole~asses. Now the slow is an issue, because I am so very limited as to time.
It was in this light that we also paid extra $$$ to DELL for in-home installation and data transfer (because I don't have time to do it).
So last night the independent-contractor-installation-guy comes at 7PM to set up my computer.
Big waste of time, friends ~~~ the data transfer didn't work for most of the important stuff ~ and he didn't install my scanner (as it is too outdated to work on W~XP), and didn't install my Opt-online internet service and modem.
So this AM I have the morning off (presumably to play on my new DELL).
I have to call my ISP to set up the internet service ~ no problem, ooops, although I can get on line ~ I can't get my e-mail. Error: winsoc 10061 So I call back.
They say "call windows, it's an XP problem.
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* call to windows ~ no, I'm not paying $30.00 for phone support! so ...
* call DELL ~ 30 minutes later, they say, "not our problem, call your ISP back".
* call to ISP ~ 45 minutes later (they take control of my computer, check everything, uncheck everythings ~ PRESTO ~ STILL DOESN'T WORK! They tell me it may be the Norton Internet protection program "Call Symantec"
* Call Symantec ~ NO they want to charge me $30 for the call.
* call DELL ~ 30 minutes later ~ the foreigner, (who speaks only moderate Kings English, my apologies to all foreign-born readers), does a GOOGLE search (of all things) for the error message, has me go through the whole search process on-line with him and then says "call your ISP" and tell them to read this article.
* call the ISP ~ "Not our problem ~ Call DELL, don't you have support?" "in the meantime you can access your e-mail through web-mail"
* Call DELL ~ "You understand that this is above and beyond your service agreement"? "We are not really required to go in-depth into a problem of this nature".
ME: "I don't care at this point who's problem it is. I paid $$$ for someone to come here and set this #$%^ up because I don't have time for this! Someone can now come and package this stuff up and take it out of here! I am late for work!
* DELL ~ hold on 30 minutes later ~ sorry, you will have to call your ISP ~ it seems to be that the port listed is not accessible. They have you set on the wrong port.
* ISP ~ "the port is correct, call your DELL support"
* ME ~ silence
* ISP ~ "Mam?" ... Hello ... um
* N|ME ~ "I can not **&^%$ believe this! Exactly what am I supposed to do at this point?!?! Do you have any understanding of the level of my frustration??? Do you???"
* ISP ~ "Mamm... please understand ... mam?"
* ME - CLICK
* Me (call to husband) ~ here insert intermittent sobs ~ "I am done ~ I give up, I am late for work ~ I can't talk to these idiots any more ~ I am worn out ~ I give up ~ I am taking a shower and going to work 45 minutes late! I know this is not your fault, but I am yelling at you anyway, and you will just have to deal with that!!"
* husband ~ "I know ... OK... You're right, ... poor you ... OK, I'll call someone tonight, don't think about it, go to work, try to have a nice day"
Isn't he great? Somehow, I was thinking this was all his fault ~ he's the one who thougth the old computer was too slow. Wouldn't want to waste time would we.
Stay tuned, saga should continue tomorrow...
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I am so sorry (I know, I am one of those idiots who said, "gotta get a dell...") Hope it all gets straightened out soon for you. Must be the moon, I had the worst day ever at work....something about "my attitude"...imagine that....
if you are still having problems, let me know and I'll come up this weekend (it's that or chores!).
hmmm...really rethinking getting a new dell....but it probably can't be as bad as this dumbass compaq i have now! Or can it? hhhmmm...good luck...
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March 22, 2004
addictions
I did my visits, then my car took a detour past through DD for a fresh cuppa Java.
Why is it that mid-afternoon at work, a cup of DD coffee can make the world seem great?
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wow. don't know where you have moved YOUR office to, but unless that "cup" held about 55 gallons of coffee (and a bunch of vodka) my office is still looking like, well, my office. harumph!
Yup, that'll do it for me every time too!
DD coffee?! DD?! Can't do better than that?? Gotta bakery next door to one of our clinics that makes a fantastic White Chocolate Mocha Latte (skim milk of course with lots of whipped topping). That's what gets me thru the day.
Just started reading Wicked - really enjoying it so far. Tried Cold Mtn but couldn't get going with it, so, since I already had Wicked . . .
What were you telling me Michelle was going to do with a book reading thing????
BTW - last time I remind you to play Scrabble - you weren't supposed to end the game!
I am going to work by Jeanette.
I find the DD coffee tastes better with a fresh cruller... yummy!
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and it's still only Monday
...feel like I've been here for a week already!
Promises to be a long week, culminating in graduation on Friday night ~ so the pressure to meet deadlines encroaches. At least it appears as if most people are in agreeable moods here today ~ present company included. ~funny how that has such a huge influence on how the day goes
Now I've gotta "hit the road" and visit a few students on-site. Too damn cold and windy for this. I THOUGHT IT WAS SPRING!?!
***** Puppy update******
Take 1 hours off the countdown, we're going to pick her up at 11:00 am on Sat.!
March 21, 2004
Baptisms, maple syrup and music
A special day today.
Our granddaughter was baptized, so we spent our Sunday morning worship experience in a church far different from our own.
We attend a small country-village United Methodist church with an average attendance of 50 - 60 at Sunday service. Our choirs number 2, with about 7 members in each.
The church we attended today is also a United Methodist church, with 3 Sunday services, three bell choirs and five voice choirs. The bell choir played, the youth choir (about 25 children) sang and the regular choir of about 30 voices ~ filled the church! (...and wafted to the balcony, also filled with people)
Oh, to have that music every Sunday. {sigh}
The Baptism was beautiful, five baby girls were baptized, but of course, our granddaughter was the most adorable.
When we got home mid-afternoon we took a ride up the mountain to visit the brother of one of the old-timers in our church. These two farmer/brothers have a small maple syrup process and today they were boiling. I have never seen this done, and someone was quite impressed and asked so many questions you would have thought she was writing a report for school. We stood in the shed with a wood-fired boiler. I don't think I'll soon forget the heat of the wood stove, the hissing sound of the boiling syrup and the sweet smell of that steam coiling around the vented ceiling, sometimes clouding our view of one another.
Of course we came home with a quart of home-town syrup, and we are making pancakes for dinner (something my husband never agrees to! (of course we ate enough after the Baptism, that we should be banned from food for the remainder of the day).
Thanks for the show!
Had a family gathering yesterday for my husband's birthday.
Unfortunately one of his daughters, and one grandson could not make it due to the awful-awful stomach flu going around. ~missed them both~
But the day went well, and nature cooperated on this the vernal equinox.
The fox returned, trotting across the lower yard - and then back again - and then towards the house - leisurely enough for everyone to see him, even the kids.
Shortly after this, the deer came, 12 of them, and gathered at the bird feeders (could be the cracked corn) in the gathering twilight and my guests all stood at the windows watching the deer vie for position, jostling and prodding one another (the deer, not my family) for the prime places to feed. Of course, all this while I was trying to keep the dinner warm on the table ~ timing is everything. But it was quite entertaining ~ and we were glad that nature put on such a show for our guests.
We are truely blessed, and mostly with family.
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What a nice read...glad you guys had such a great day. Poor M and little guy feeling under the weather. Living at your house is like having the Bronx Zoo in your yard every day but better - no traffic
I'm so jealous of your yard. We need an invite when the fox re-run is on in your yard! now that we have fenced in our yard there is no hope of having deer back there.
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March 20, 2004
my alter-egos
Snagged this from michele at coffeesoup.
Had a great time with it!
Do a google image search of your name!
You've got to see what I came up with!
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These are all the faces of me, and honestly, some of them are quite a self-realization:
...on my serene days, I get this from my past life as a sufraggette
OOpppss... sorry, not me
What I would like to be in my next life ~ (or maybe a bird)
"she is a song that's not easy to write" ~ hey, can anyone play this?
Where my heart is on most days
Me in the early 70's
Then I grew up ... and ... well ...
if you could be inside my head ~ here's how my brain works
This is my "not very complex" self ~ the clothes make the girl
AND HERE SHE IS:
The real me, simple, lovable, waiting for a hug.
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HA! Those were good ones.
I didn't understand the whole thing - I just kept getting pictures of people on the beach? Of course, that is where MY mind is most days! Count down to PUPPY!!!!!
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March 19, 2004
Ooopps..
What?
It's not "bring your daughter to work day"?
OK, so I was wrong ... sorry ... must have gotten the date wrong.
... I did call earlier, but um, the boss wasn't here yet so, well,
here she is ... and here I am!
So he says "Hi, J" ! "Are you here all day with mom?"
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Why do the words, "bite me" come to mind? He brought his friggin' DOG here one day! He just doesn't bring his kids cause they are ugly little clones of him...(did I say that out loud?)
Want to bring a couple more :)
That would get him, huh?
You should have called out like he does everytime his kid farts. He should have been grateful you even drove all that distance in bad weather.
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some redeeming qualities
I AM TIRED OF THE SNOW!
I am tired of figuring out what to do with someone when there is a delayed opening, or in today's case NO SCHOOL!
I work, my husband works, and she just wants to stay home and "veg"
All that said, the snow is quite beautiful today, hanging thick on all the trees, still falling softly... and as we took in the View from My Window this morning, this is what we saw:
Can't complain ~ just beautiful!
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I guess that is not a picture of the babysitter. I am so jealous of the view from your window. Right now I am overlooking the parking lot here at work, not quite the view you have.
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March 18, 2004
What would they say ... ?
Watching this story unfold in the news, and seeing the inevitable "neighbor" interviewed (who herself looked a little maniacal). "Neighbors on McCoy's street said they didn't know much about the suspect or his mother."
Or his High school coach: "He was an ornery kid, but a lot of kids are ornery at that age, I don't remember him doing anything extreme."
So I was thinking of all the past interviews, of all the neighbors of all the serial killers and bombers.
Comments like:
"he always kept to himself"
"used to come and go at odd times"
"a quiet person ... didn't know him well"
"you ever saw much of him"
"seemed like a nice enough person"
... anyway, I got to wondering what would my neighbors say about me?
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Honestly, I could appear as incriminated as any of these.
"She comes home very late at night" (I work evenings)
"Every time she gets in her car to leave, she goes back into the house one more time" (I am always forgetting something)
"We never see much of her socially" (I work for crying out loud, and as much as I like my neighbors, I barely have time for my family)
... So think about it and tell me ... what would your neighbors say about you when CNN comes to call?
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and they would also say about you:
"Hmmm, she was ALWAYS on the phone.." AND
"She did hang around some very strange people..."
hmmm..me:
my nieghbors wouldn't know who I was
my extended family (like you) would say, "I was deranged"
my wife would stick up for me (she better!!)
my family would say, "I alienated myself most of the time"
my friends would say "He was always inside on the computer"
eventually it would all be blamed on video games, I would get off scott free and sue the video game manufacturers for ruining my life.
Remember it's not MY fault, it's societies!
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March 17, 2004
Irish saints and delayed openings
It is far too late in the year to worry about which parent stays home to "wait for the start of school".
This snow has already caused me too much strain. Last night, with my boss' poor decision to keep night school open (until the eleventh hour when he decided maybe we should have cancelled ~ now they are all on the road already on their way) created a wasted night.
* at least two car accidents (minor)
* two faculty members did not make it (leaving me in the classroom all night instead of at my desk getting my stuff done)
* less than 1/3 of the student body attended, making it worthless for anyone to actually teach anything
* as it was still snowing, we dismissed at 8 pm when the major traffic was cleared.
* it took me 2 hours to get home on very icy, snowy, miserably neglected back country roads (I love living in the country ~ I do)
* Now there is a 2-hour delay
So, how's everyone else's day?
Good things:
*HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!
~ We'll be wearin' some green in this house.
Want to test your Irish knowledge? Take this Quiz (snagged from Michelle)
* Got my new Dell yesterday!! Hooray! No time to hook it up (work is always getting in my way)
*only 10 more days 'till puppy day!
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Sorry about the snow . . . won't rub in how nice our weather is. Just remember it as the year it snowed on Mike birthday. BTW - tell him happy birthday for me! Love the puppy pics - Brandy is a cutie. No, haven't seen The Passion yet - didn't get back after the last try. Did see Secret Window - it was good. Not much going on here, work, home, work, home, same old drill.
yay! a St Patrick's Day Dell (almost!)
sorry you had to go in and deal with all that last night.
Happy St Patrick's Day!
Well at least I am not the only one who had one of those days yesterday. Thing will be better just keep swimming (smiling)!
love ya
Hope Michael had a great birthday! Glad you got home safe and sound (even if it SHOULD have been about 5 hours earlier) and happier yet that you made it here again today. Misery DOES love company. Happy! Happy!
ACK, I don't see how that job hasn't driven you over the edge yet!
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March 16, 2004
count to 10
Someone please help me count to ten, and refrain from killing my boss.
if you need to know why; Debby has it all explained in detail. I'm going to count ...
...one ...
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not helping you count...I WANT you to kill him
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SNOW??
You have got to be kidding!
I am in Spring mode!
I put away the gloves and hats!
And at the worst possible time of the day.
It is now 10:45, and I am due to go to work in 2 1/2 hours and stay until 11 pm.
Can this really be happening on the 16th of March?
BTW ~ it's my beloved's Birthday today. I won't disclose his age, but he looks pretty good in my book!
(psst... he's the one in the green jacket)
We got up early and had a home-cooked breakfast and he opened gifts, we sang, had balloons, candles and all, and then I drove someone to school to gain us 45 minutes together at home.
Anyway, stop by and wish him a Happy Day!
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Happy birthday to your beloved! :)
Snow? Are you kidding me? I've read that on a few blogs today and I'm looking out my window at this glorious sppring sky thinking Its good to live in southern California right now. (if you don't mind paying 2.15 a gallon for gas, that is)
Happy happy happiest birthday Michael!
Happy Birthday Michael...all the best!
Happy Birthday Dad, err Mike! From both of us!
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The Passion
I had stated last week that we were going to see The Passion of Christ, a few people have asked me for my comments. I am just now having the time.
Probably better to have waited to put my thoughts together. I am not a movie critic, or a religious scholar. I am just a Christian woman, with my own limited perceptions. So, that said:
I liked it.
It is not a movie you "love" or "enjoy", but I do have to say that I am glad I saw it.
I was moved.
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Moved to tears; quiet tears that rolled down my face for most of the duration of the movie. I am a Christian. I believe that Jesus is the Son of God. I did not see anything in the movie that shocked me, as I knew the story well. The Bible tells us he was beaten beyond recognition. This movie just shows it more intensely than other films in the past.
I was moved by the portrayal of Mary's stoic bearing of the events. This, I believe was because she knew that this was God's will. Not the doings of man, any group, or race of people. God's plan from the beginning, He was born to die.
Because I believe this, I never felt anger towards anyone during the events of the movie... except perhaps God. Truth. I actually felt anger towards God for turning away from the cries of His Son, in such a time of need.
The crowds? They were influenced by the religious leaders, who were acting against someone they believed to be a heretic, but a popular one. Jesus had shown the potential to undermine the laws and teaching they enforced, He was a threat that they felt they had to get rid of, for the good of the people. They too were reacting just as God had planned for them to act. Were they any different than every other civilization of people? How many times throughout history has a religion, a government or a group of people done seemingly immoral things to squelch what they felt was a potential threat or rebellion? Done for the good of the people, or even in the name of God?
As for those performing the scourging, I think that every society has these people who can perform such acts, and actually enjoy them, excusing them as justifiable under the guise that it is their vocation. The better scourging they could deliver, the better they were at their jobs.
Judas? I have never held the betrayal of Jesus against him. At the Last Supper Jesus spoke to Judas saying "What you must do, do quickly." Again, part of the plan. Oh, Judas had his reasons, were they to "force Jesus hand" into action and rebellion? Was it because Jesus had let him down, not being willing to fight against the Roman oppression? Call me naive, but I believe God called the shots here too.
Satan: I think I could have done without. (can't we all) I was thinking that this was an unnecessary part of the script ~ too bizarre for me ~ and too disturbing ~ but then I realized that he was there, tempting Jesus to the end. So I'll allow it.
So, Mel Gibson used some "poetic license" ~ don't all filmmakers? He combined the story of the passion as one story, but he took references from all four Gospels. HORRORS! Doesn't every priest or minister do the same when preparing a sermon? Aren't we to read everything we can, then put it all together to make our own judgements?
Do some people take the events of this movie and turn them into anger or hatred against people? Perhaps they do, but for my part, I can not see how or why. Then again there are still people who watch a movie portrayal of the Civil War and take up new anger against the North ~ or the South. If this is done, it is not a fault of the filmmaker; it is a fault of small-minded, angry people who are already looking for reasons to hate. I went to see this movie looking for a reason to love, and I found it.
Most years I make it a part of my lenten preparation to attend a passion play, watch a movie portraying the events of Holy week, or work through a lenten Bible study. This year I saw The Passion of the Christ. It will stay with me.
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i am glad that you liked it and that it was moving for you.
we are going to have to agree to disagree on this one...both the theology and the movie.
i think that's ok.
i am glad that you got to see it though and that it touched you.
well written review, made me re-think seeing from Michelle's review.
Don't know yet weather we will get a chance to see it in the movies or not. Definately want to see it and will go in openminded. I am glad you guys got to see it and that it moved you it is that time of year when we can all do with a little reminding of what it is all about.
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March 13, 2004
We choose a pup!
Here she is!
Meet Brandy!
We did (unofficially) choose today. And this is the one for us.
I have updated the gallery, the newest photos at the end.
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Awwwwwwwww! She is adorable!
I think she looks like J, cute as a button! Congrats!
she's beeeeaaaaautiful -- her markings are almost breed standard, too (shh, don't let it out, but i'm a dog show geek at heart.) My roommate from college is named Brandi, and the name entitles them to more than a little bitchiness occasionally, but otherwise they're easy to live with. :) Congrats, guys!
As for me, I want that 8 week old!
aw! she's great. can't wait to see her. she looks like part of the family already!
That face! What a little sweetie! (said in my most irritating squeal)
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weekend busy-ness
Going to a Creative Memories (scrapbook) party this morning at my sisters. Fresh fruit and bagels. Mmmm... (why is it always about the food?) Found some old photos of someone's second birthday. Amazing, you forget how very cute they were, and how young you looked! She is bringing (of course) puppy pictures to work with. Fun to spend a little creative time with family.
Speaking of puppies (and I know I often do these days), we are going back to visit them this afternoon. ~ so look for more pictures!!
Tonight we are going to see the Passion of Christ (I know, it's about time - but the babysitter is into her softball season and her time is at a premium).
... busy weekend, tomorrow is my Dad's birthday. Happy Birthday Daddy!
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Hey you! Have a great weekend..have fun with the puppies and at the movies. OF COURSE the scrapbook party is about the food, silly....still have a chocolate fondue stain on my shirt from your candle party!
So do you have a review of Passion for us?
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March 12, 2004
useless lunchtime info
today's Snapple cap "Real Fact" #110:
Frogs never drink.
... I didn't know that.
(Get all the "Real Facts" at snapple.com)
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Well then they should all be the designated drivers!
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3 for 5
Boss is out again today.
I should keep a count here.
This week he worked Wed & Thurs ~ only
...wonder what next week will bring?
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Ah yes, being the boss is good.
Before any silly rumors start, no, he wasn't with me.
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turn around
... and today is cold and windy!
March 11, 2004
spring
spring called to me today
called to me by name ...
was it in the sound of the wind
or the keee-yahhh of the Redtail
swooping over my head as I got out of the car?
was it the tree-top song of the Cardinal?
or the soft rushing of water?
She called to me ... and I went
down the yard,
feeling myself pulled across the field by the voices,
trodding on soft earth, on light feet,
~ almost at a run
to the stream, that spot long neglected these winter months
and it was there that I found her
no, not at first
she begged me search ~ inspect ~ seek
and there, at the waters edge
on the muddy bank
I found her
THERE! ~ HERE!
a shoot of yellow-green
another!
hundreds, as I search
all reaching their delicate heads out of the soft earth
they called "here we are"
she said "here I am"
and in the still-cool sunshine,
the soft breeze and rushing water
she temped me ~ "stay"
the sights yet to see,
the sounds, the scent of the woods,
"stay ~ explore ~ discover ... "
and I would,
though I can not.
for I am off to other demands,
responsibilities call me away
with a voice more demanding,
more insistent,
yet, not as soft,
not as kind,
and not nearly as seductive.
Oh yes, Spring called to me today
and I answered.
I've found her, will she wait for me again?
the "whys" of parenting
~why is it that the hardest thing for married folk to agree on is parenting?
~why is it that when one parent initiates a discussion on ~ for instance ~ how to avoid the morning tears-stress-yelling-stomping routine, the other parent (that would be me) feels that her parenting skill have not only been attacked, but that she has forever scarred her child?
~why is it that I try as hard as I can to help my child learn to manage her life, and others percieve it as "controlling"
~why is it that children try so hard to please their parents ~ while at the same time said parents are trying hard to please their child ~ and neither side seems to understand?
~why is it?
It's OK if no one has an answer, I'll get over it. I'll try not to be so controlling, but it is perhaps the only way I know...
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hang in there. there aren't any easy answers. i know that!
and no one has written that handbook yet.
{{hugs}}
I know. I know. Its not easy is it? And there's just always so much self-doubt.
Hang in there, I don't think I've met a mom yet who knows what's she's doing.
You are talking to the QUEEN of "trying to control" here. We'll talk. Missed ya.
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March 10, 2004
time off?
A certain woman works full time, some days it's mid-afternoons into the late night, some days 9 - 5. Wednesdays are a 9-5, her night at home. The one night (besides Friday) that she does not work. Ahh, dinner with the family. ("Hi! Who are you? How's your life been this week?") The glitch in this plan is that, work goes on there without her, and as she is the manager ~ they tend to call her at home. Now, all this is understandable, but the bigger problem is that:
a) They call her at home with problems that she obviously can not handle until she is there tomorrow.
b) Her family is sitting at the dinner table rolling their eyes because she is immediately immersed into her "work-self" 100%.
c) Now she has to mull said problem over and over in her head until tomorrow.
~ pass the wine please she says.
P.S. She also says: "Go over to Debra's site ! She has great news, congratulate her"!!!
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Ahhh. How sweet of you to put me in your post. It really touched me.
I'm sorry you had a rough evening. I really don't think anyone can understand "US" unless they live the dream..........
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too cute or what?
Just had to show a recent photo of one of the pups
This is probably not ours, but one of her siblings. They're getting big!
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OMG, now that is just too cute!
aw!! that's a cute one! but why are they trying to hang her on that pegboard?
can't wait to see your newest member of the family.
Gratitude is the most exquisite form of courtesy.
Even a philosopher gets upset with a toothache.
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March 09, 2004
kids n stuff
Getting lots done this morning, but not a lot of time to write!
*The snow is gone and I am inspired by the views of spring outside my window.
This morning I saw a flash of GOLD on a goldfinch, and yesterday's snow is just a minor set-back. But in the early mornings, when I open the door to the deck, I can smell spring.
* I am thinking of changing the name of my blog to "The View from My Window" or something like that. I am constantly AT my window watching nature, and then again ~ my blog is my view on life. What do you think?
* Go over and check Debra's site She's hosting a "contest" for who's daughter's room is the messiest ~ as someone has been trying real hard lately, I think this is another contest I will not win ~ then again, there is no prize ~ just a "case of notoriety"
* Are you watching our countdown? What? You haven't seen the puppy pics in the gallery? Well ~ go look! This weekend we hope to go pick which bundle of fluff we get to bring home on the 27th. I'll post more pictures.
* Gaining some control today by balancing checkbooks! (Oh ~ what's that? You do yours weekly? Ha ha ha ha ha ~ ummm... not me). Sometimes it's very enlightening to see the actual balance. Now I'm on my way to the bank to transfer some $$$$ (go figure). Then off to work!!!!!
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I balance my checkbook daily. Kind of sad when I think about it, watching my wealth dwindle away each day LOL
i have never been so good at balancing things. i can sometimes balance a spoon on my nose...but i don't think i have tried a checkbook :)
i'm so excited for you guys, puppy-wise. and not just because i want to take pictures. :) you'll be getting a female, right? or no? do you have any names picked out? i saw a few in the pictures who look gorgeous, but it's temperament alone, i know! i love how they still have baby-blue eyes.
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March 08, 2004
Sopranos anyone?
Did you watch?
What did you think?
I was disappointed ... too long a wait for too little action.
Key points:
* Liked the opening, instead of Tony retrieving the paper ~ it get's run-over. Message ~ Tony doesn't live here any more.
* Loved the bear incident, didn't expect that. Loved cocky-grown-up AJ's reaction.
* Somewhat expected, but interesting story line with the Psychiatrist. You know this is going somewhere eventually. Typical Tony to call her a name (and not just any name) when she ultimately refused. He won't let this go, and as you see in her dreams, she's going to give in (my opinion) and afterwards be sorry.
* Carmella ~ can't figure this one. She's at one point fiercely independent, running the household by herself, not calling Tony about the bear, single parenting and all ~ then she's standing in the kitchen polishing apples? What's that all about? Even with her $$ no one has time to do that! So are we to be proud of her? Feel sorry for her? Take out our over-worked-mom anger on her? Or just ignore it all like Tony did as he swigged OJ from the carton in the house where he no longer lives.
* Chris and Pauley ~ nothing like a sensless murder to bring old friends together, eh? We were brought to the brink of violence between them (Pauley would have deserved what he got) and then *bingo* an innocent to take out their anger on! Next morning we are all OK! ~ a little too hokey (the making up) for me.
* Best part of the show ~ the ending: Tony on his patio ~ with his cigar and gun ~ hunter-provider gone awry ~ reluctant protector of his family ~ spurned lover brooding ~ his life is out of his control, and he can't get a foothold ~ but a gun and a cigar put him right back in his element, give him purpose, and he's just Tony again for the moment.
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thought i was a good set-up for this season's story archs.
loved tony on the patio. loved that the dr. didn't fall for him ...although, c'mon, we all secretly wish maybe she would just once!
AJ and meadow both need a good backslap
can't wait to see what happens when they find out about christopher's girlfriend!
next week looks promising...
I don't watch the Sopranos but I made the mistaje of calling my mom while she was watching. She yelled at me and then hung up. LOL So I guess that means she thought it was good.
The kiss and make up between Chris and Pauley can't be anything but temporary. Somebody's got to die.
As I said on my site, I love the black bear theme, but that's partly for selfish reasons.
Oh yes, and the other thing that's fun for me is that with all the trips I've been making to Jersey City this winter, the opening sequence is that much more familiar.
Anyway, I like it better than the belated Sex and the City. Certainly better than Curb Your Enthusiasm... about as much as Six Feet Under.
YUCK....backwash in the OJ>>>>
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SNOW ???
snow?
a two hour delay?
and today I have to be at work at 8 AM !
I'll admit, I was the skeptic who did not believe the weather forecast ~
shame on me
How does this happen?
REVISED: The two-hour delay turned into "closed for the day" (Is that like a three-hour-tour?)
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My husband just called me at work, scaring the heck out of me, and told me he had a delay and was just getting ready to go now. (7:30) How does that work I had to go in on time.
hey!? you guys got delays. we just have snow/slush/ick here.
winter without the benefits. lol.
i am sure you will have a calm and relaxing morning :)
can't call from wokr but how a lunch maybe I get out at 11 and will call you
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March 07, 2004
Malls, Money and Tony
A quick trip, and a quick $200. +
Jeans and shirts for Michael, and he showed me the power tool he needs for his birthday. (hint - hint)
Easter dress, skirt and blouse, jeans jacket, spring jacket (which she will wear next fall) and beach towel (dolphins of course) for someone.
(nothing for me except a Yankee Candle Fresh Cotton tart)
KFC on the way home and we are SET to watch the SOPRANOS ~
But ... do not call me, or message me until 11! ! ! !
La la la la la .... I can't hear you!!!!!!
We have to tape it as we do not invite Tony Soprano into our home until someone is safely in bed and out of earshot (What the #@*^?). As she is still practicing her flute, it looks like at least 9:30. Why don't we have TIVO????
a free day?
Sunday, home from church, done with bagels and getting ready to attack some projects around here when my husband says he thinks he's "going to the mall"
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there is a moment of palpable silence in the kitchen.
Husband *cringing* thinks: "what did I just get myself into?"
Daughter *sits up tall - wide eyed* thinks: what can I spend $$$ on?
Me *pulse increased slightly* thinks: "there are so many things I need at the mall but what about the laundry and the paperwork that is piled up here?"
anyway ~ no time to write any more ~ we're off!!!!
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well?????
how d'ya do??
are you home in time for sopranos??
That's not my father. What did you do with the real Dad. He hates going to the mall and shopping. Did you drug the cream cheese?
simple next different the.
advanced have. Internet relatively.
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March 06, 2004
When Computers Attack
ever have one of those days?
~days when, as much as you love your computer, you would throw it in the nearest lake if you could?
~days when you want to: set up / download / upgrade (pick one) something, and of course something goes wrong and YOU SPEND THREE HOURS trying to fix and or undo the problem. Now you don't even remember what it was you wanted to do in the first place ~ let alone why it was so all-fired important.
this machine on my desk has successfully sabotaged my Saturday!
anyway, I have my problem 90% fixed, but my e-mail is still going to the wrong profile and my headache will not allow me to think on it any longer.
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Whew - finally got caught up enough to view the puppy pics! The question is not what one to pick, the question is "When they are so cute how do you leave any behind??". Didn't get to see "The Passion" yesterday - they were sold out for all shows by the time we got there. So, went to see TWISTED instead - good, intense crime drama. Worth seeing, but still want to see "The Passion". Congrats on the new 'puter, but the question is, if the old one can cause so much stress - what is setting up the new one going to be like? Today I have to cook. Locke called me very upset on Friday afternoon when he heard Martha had been found guilty (you know to southern men Martha is a bit of an icon). So, I bought the current Martha Stewart Living magazine (I may subscribe him!) and I'm going to make the "Hearty Irish Dinner" (complete with soda bread from scratch) tonight in honor of all the wrongs done to Martha. I do have to agree I think that she shouldn't have been convicted. Her broker should for passing on the info but, get real, take this test: Your broker calls you and tells you you are about to lose thousands and thousands of dollars because your stock is about to go "kaput", and you say:
a. SELL! SELL! SELL IT ALL, NOW!
b. Oh, gee, I'd love to sell but that would be trading on insider information so don't sell, I'll just take the loss. Have a nice day.
c. Donate it to charity before it goes under and I'll take the tax break on the current value.
(Hey - I'll bet Martha didn't even think of "c" cause she was in such a hurry to sell. Would "c" be legal?)
Anyway, point made - no semi-intelligent human is going to stand by and lose that kind of money. Anyway, looks like one of the federal pens is about to get some free redecorating done . . . enough - I'm off to do all the things I should have done yesterday when I goofed off spinning instead!
Beautiful weather here this a.m. but we are about to turn colder.
Love!
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March 05, 2004
schedules and Sopranos
Some days it's just harder to schedule your work than others.
*Need to visit a student on-site ~ but they don't want me until after 1:30 but before 3:00.
*Need to hold a 15-minute meeting with some students here ~ but they have a test until 2:00.
*Need to go get some lunch ~ but can't leave the building because someone is coming in to meet with me "soon".
I am forced to be reactive ~ and so my very proactive "to-do-list" has once again gone "out the proverbial window"
Time-management elves please!
feelin' the need to just take charge ~ barge into this office on my own time ~ interupt the test ~ and well, as usual, skip lunch!
Good news though ~~~ SOPRANOS returns Sunday night on HBO!!!
forgive me ~ I can't wait
word is: "no one is safe this season"
or in other words "anyone can get wacked"
???who do you think???
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I love the thought of the day fro today. Those are my thoughts exactly!
OOPS. s'cuse the typo. That would be FOR :)
I just read your 100 things list. Where is number 99? You cheated! LOL
i can't wait for the new season. i just hope they make it worth the wait. they have been trying everyone's patience with this give us six episodes take a year and a half off nonsense.
six feet under is coming back too.
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March 04, 2004
not sorry
Had a busy morning ahead of me, then I got a phone call from someone saying I "can't come in and help out in the classroom today because of the Terra Nova testing". She was very sad.
Me? Ummm... not as sad as I should be, and feelin' a little guilty about that.
Now I'm going to go work out, come home and pay some bills, and maybe not have to RUSH out the door to work!
Kinda like a small gift ~ on a rainy day.
4:30 pm ~ Addendum:
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so how exactly did I end up "rushing" out the door 40 minutes late??
*but* there was one highlight to this, on the way to work, got a call from my husband ~ he's on the road ~ nearby ~ taking a little detour ~ there's my car ~ pulls over ~ just to give me a kiss!
silly, maybe. But he made me laugh, and now I feel better.
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take the gifts when you can get them!
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March 03, 2004
AAaagghhh...
THIS PLACE WILL SUCK THE LIFE OUT OF YOU!
I'm outta here!
(Thank-God-it's Wednesday?)
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Okie dokie...feeling REALLY guilty now...sorry you are having such a terrible week...hope it gets better for you really soon!
Thanks for the pep-talk from the land of the living (or is it "living-it-up")
Glad to hear from you! Sure it's all going well ~ have fun!
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sorry
Stressin' today ~ left the house that way again.
There's that feeling of ~ "too much to do" ~ "late again" ~ "my life is out-of-control" ~ "I can't get a grip" ....
and you take it out on everyone around you, and click your heels out the door like psycho-stress-mom again.
Can't even listen to my book in the car for the "noise" in my head.
... and it's only Wednesday.
Particular stress issues for the day:
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~ still working on everyone else's agenda here at work, and my own work is falling further and further behind. But this course has a deadline and my work apparently should just fall into place.
~ meeting with the pastor this evening to discuss this ongoing stress about "New Choir vs. Old Choir", I'm still not comfortable. Two "old choir" members have resigned, and on the Sundays we sing the "old choir" director and his wife go to another church. Are we really treading on peoples feelings this much? - or are they overreacting. And hey! What about my feelings? I listen to you guys sing! Bottom line is that I will not be an instrument in turning someone away from the church they have belonged to for ## years (and I've only been here for 3).
~ a friend found a lump in her breast. 'nuf said?
~ need to get out of here and visit no less than 6 students on-site before Friday. Just got out of a meeting , have another one at 2, and another at 3:15, leaving at 4:30, and tomorrow I have to be in someone's classroom in the morning. So that leaves, I guess tomorrow afternoon ~ 6 students ~ 4 towns Eeeeekkk!
Someone please either pray for me or shoot me! (if the latter, pass on my apologies to my family for my behavior this morning). Thanks!
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March 02, 2004
GOTTA GET A DELL
Did it! The new computer is on - the - way!
Oh, and I did manage to go food shopping too. (Am I just SUPER MOM or what?)
~ had to skip the workout this morining though, and no time to eat ~
~ well, except for that piece of pineapple-upside-down cake (only because it was convenient and quick)
Behold! did anyone notice the new addition to my site?
Go look!
Over there! On the left! A thought for the day!
Thanks M "Oh Great Web Master" ~ as ususal, you're the best!
P.S. anyone out there? Stop over and wish the Princess a great vacation!
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Congrats on the new computer. It's always refreshing to get to start from scratch on a new one. Have fun! :)
is this new PC gonna let you play some serious games or are you stuck with that nintendo? :P
We'll NEVER be up to YOUR speed Brad, oh Great Gaming Wizard ;~)
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what to do?
as usual, too much to do, too little time:
the question is this:
* do I go to Curves? ~ then food shopping?
* do I skip Curves ~ run through the supermarket ~ come home and clean?
* do I do one more load of laundry before I run out the door ~ thereby not leaving enough time to do anything else?
* or do I say to ^%$$ with all of it ~ stay here ~ get on-line and order my new DELL computer? **free hard drive upgrade** if I order on-line today!
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Order the Dell hands down!
silly woman... was there ever a choice? :)
DELLs all around please!
I say )(*^%#%#*& with all of it curl up and read a book. Its that kind of day. (this could be an I'm jealous issue...no new computer for us in the near future)
Silly, silly, silly..... order away! LOVE my Dell!
Do I work on my story now, or go to the gym? Do I get everything together for taxes? Or make dinner? Do I blog, or read a book?
What is it with us? Is there ever a way (I feel like Carrie Bradshaw here) to know that you're doing the right thing -- to just be, without feeling like you have to accomplish everything?
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March 01, 2004
get out!
Would anyone else like to come into my office and interrupt me with some important business that, as it is a priority, needs my attention right away?
Would anyone care to see my to-do list for today?
These were my priorities, not yours, not corporate priorities ~ they were the things I needed to get done today (in order to fulfill my little obligation to the students and the organization and thereby earn my keep, and keep my little overstressed head above water)
Now, your priorities, and the corporate priorities have all been seen to and I will go get a sandwich (at 3:30 pm) and come back to resume attacking my to-do list (if it's not too late).
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Sorry you are having such a God-awful day...
{{{HUGS}}}
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Ouch!
Squeezing my feet back into shoes ~ must be a Monday.
This has been such a busy weekend! I'm sure you were wondering where I was ~ as I certainly wasn't bloging. (BTW - where are those house elfs that are supposed to do the dishes and laundry while you blog? I seem to have misplaced mine, maybe someone gave them her socks) I was stressing, running and catching up on the house.
I'm sure you've all raced over to my gallery to see the puppy pictures. We did not choose ours yet, as it is too soon, and a few will be show-dog pics. In a few weeks when the markings are more defined, we'll go back and pick.
We did leave a deposit, and will be bringing our pup home on March 27th. (Watch for my countdown - coming soon!)
Best part of my weekend? the look on someone's face with those puppies! Just look:
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Missed your blogging this weekend. Thought the cleaning elves were at YOUR house - they totally missed mine. Calling the Elfin Better Business Bureau to register a complaint. Are they unionized?
the elves were here!!! lol
ok, it was one large grumpy elf who knew how to do everything better than me......;)
pssst...
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Puppy pics
a busy, busy weekend -
we saw the puppies today -
I just finished loading the pictures and now it's after 2 am!
So go see them in the gallery ~ go now!
I'm going to bed!
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Cute, cuter, cutest! How do you choose one? Will they take a trade-in exchange...2 kids for 1 cute little puppy? Sounds like the deal of a lifetime!
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N, First of all, >>. Second of all, been there, both myself and with my 2 kids. You did the BEST thing that you could do (which is also the HARDEST thing) and that is listen. You didn't poo-poo her feelings or brush them aside. She is growing up and the feelings of inadequacy creep in even if you are prom queen. Rest assured that she will be fine. She has great parents to help her through these tough times. Now, wake up you-know-who and get a little support for you!