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September 19, 2005
You take control - I sure as Hell can’t...
...or when Purple Elephant’s Corner became a choose-your-own action adventure story.
When I submit a piece of work, I fret about it not being good enough for all of about three and a half minutes, then after that I slip into celebration mode, that huge sigh of relief at having finally got rid of it.
This time it is different. One week on I still have The Fear. I’m convinced that my essay isn’t worthy of a pass, that I didn’t even answer the question, in fact The Fear has worked itself up to a point beyond rationality. I think what is bothering me is that I’ve been doing fine all year, I got my best mark for the first one which wasn’t worth very much at all, it would be just like me to cock up on the last one worth double the marks.
You see if I was rational being then I would be able to brush it aside and move on but not I, it has got to the point where last night I was having the cold sweats and - oh God - the nightmares.
I think I like being rational the best.
So my dilemma is this: Should I open up the file of my last essay and read it through? In my opinion it could go one of two ways I would either;
a) Read it and discover it wasn’t so bad after all. Then rejoice and get on with my exam revision...
b) Read it and discover it was worse than I thought and either work doubly hard for the exam or give up entirely depending on just how bad it is..
Or is it better not to read it at all because there is nothing I can do about all those glaring errors now?
So for the first time at Purple Elephant’s Corner, you get to control my life. I’ll have a vote, round up your answers at some point in the not so distant future and obey your instructions.
So to make it clear the question is;
Should Purple Elephant read her all important essay, even though there is nothing she could change at this point?
Over to you...
Posted by purple elephant at September 19, 2005 06:52 PM