the paper will not be done on time.

the bright side is that i finally found what i needed. the downside is that there is no way i can process all this and revise the original in time. i have been working on it and hoping for the best, but it isn't going to happen.

so now, i suppose i go to class and see what happens. i don't expect an extension. it's fine. we are going to chalk this semester up to a "learning experience" in more ways than one. i am feeling a bit less overwhelmed even with this setback. before i was spinning my wheels, writing crap, feeling completely at a loss. now i at least feel like i have direction.

one bad grade will not kill me. (i keep trying to convince myself of this after my grade grubbing undergrad experience).

so i am off to the big city (to a completely different campus!) and i will just see what happens with trains, subways and tardy papers.